So, as I was saying in my introduction, this blog is mainly going to be a guide or reference for my journey through recovery.  And when I say recovery, I’m not talking about drug abuse or alcoholism.  I am talking about my path back to happiness and finding the light in my life once more.

Let me just say that it hasn’t been easy acknowledging the fact that I need help.  It’s been hard to ask for directly.  But, it was time.  Something had to give, or I don’t know what might have happened to me.  I would go so far as to say that I may even be dead right now.

I was having violent fits of rage, cutting myself, crying spells…the whole nine yards.  And I wasn’t getting any better over time despite my medications and doctors.  My pleas for help from peers were going unanswered and I could no longer carry the weight that was upon my shoulders alone.  I had lost Faith in everything, inclusive of the world and humanity -even Spiritually.  And even worse, I felt like I hated everything about myself and my life.

It wasn’t until my last fit of rage, where I cut my wrist, that I committed to going into the mental facility for a pscyh evaluation.  Not only did I commit to the evaluation, but I also committed to following through with whatever they recommended.  I had gone before, but couldn’t be bothered to follow up due to things like Holidays and work.  This time was different.  This time, I had to make the choice — the hard decision to actually put myself first, for what felt like the first time in my life.

This will be a crazy ride for both you and I…but, we can do it together.  Through Mindfulness, Acceptance and Intensive Cognitive Behavioral Therapy we may discover things that we never even knew existed about ourselves.  We may travel through dark and winding paths where there may glimmers of hope that await us.  I don’t know about you, but I’m maintaining a positive attitude because my life and happiness depend on it.

Come with me on this journey.  Let’s go for a ride together.