I’m going to start this post out with a quote.

“If I continue to do what I’ve always done,  I’m going to get what I always got.” – unknown

I didn’t choose this path in life.   I didn’t choose to be anxious or fearful.   These two things pull me into the darkest places I’ve ever seen; I would never choose to live this way.   And now I’m learning that I do,  in fact,  have choices.   There is the tiniest bit of light at the end of my long and dark tunnel.   That light is where I’m wanting to find hope again. 

This is going to take some serious commitment,  but I have to do something.   So,  it’s time to ACT (accept-choose-take action)!

ACT

I’ve been told that the first step to anything is admitting that something exists.   In this case, it will be my anxiety and depression issues.  It’s a big deal for me to accept these issues as things that are a part of me as a being.   But,  they are.   And by accepting that,  I theoretically should be able to come to terms with my unwanted thoughts and/or feelings. 

The next step I’m learning is to choose a direction for my life to head in.   It’s where your focus lies.   I’ve found that no one can answer this question for you…you’re going to have to think of it yourself.   The decision process will need to include your personal values and what things in life are important to you.  You may even have to reevaluate what’s important to you from time to time – but you know what?  That’s just fine!  

The last step is to finally take action.   It’s here where you have to take into consideration the things you can and can not control or change.  This is also where you make choices and decisions to move towards the direction of your chosen values. 

My Commitment to Change

Personally,  I want to find my inner peace again.   I’m currently in a constant war inside my own head and neither side is winning the battle.   I’m being drug out of my life and into a constant state of misery.   I’ve identified my own need to once again find happiness.   And this means not letting the days just pass by,  but to live a meaningful and full life.   A life where I can acknowledge my fears and anxiety,  but where they are no longer in charge. 

I’ve identified a few obstacles that may get in the way.  These obstacles are only hypothetical and I came up with them on a whim.   But they are subject to include money or financial ability,  people that may place restrictions on my personal goals,  and fear – both of failure and pain. 

I know that I said this was going to be a bumpy ride…and it will be for me…but I am one hundred percent invested in this.   There is no looking back for me.   I’m out of options.   So with my goals clearly in sight,  I’m fresh into the beginnings of what is sure to be one hell of a journey. 

Am I ready to choose a new approach with my anxieties,  fears and worries?  You bet your ass that I am.  Is this all scary?  Yes…yes,  it is.   But change can be scary and liberating at the same time.   This is the risk I’m willing to take…

Let’s get this show on the road…wherever it may take us…